Peruvian_Skies

joined 10 months ago
[–] Peruvian_Skies 1 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago)

I was treated with antidepressants for a few years. They didn't help, I couldn't cum either, and also I gained a lot of weight and I slept ten hours a day and still felt groggy when I was awake. Then I went to a new psychiatrist who thought I might have bipolar depression rather than "normal" depression. It's BPD except you don't have the euphoric mania, so it presents like depression. But since it's BPD, it's treated with antipsychotics rather than antidepressants. I got on lithium and brexpriprazol. I did a few ECT sessions. I went to an ayahuasca ceremony. Lo and behold, I got better. The treatment gave me enough energy to change my habits. I started exercising, meditating, I took up old hobbies I had abandoned because I couldn't be bothered. Every small change I made synergized with the others to give me more energy and lessen my burdens. And before I knew it, I was happy and looking forward to tomorrow.

Believing that everyone who is happy is actually faking it is a coping mechanism, and a very bad one at that. It makes you feel slightly less horrible to think that everyone else feels just as shitty as you do. But fortunately, it isn't true. Most people are happy. That's why the people who share your view that it'd be better if we all died off are so few and far between. That's why we laugh and sing and dance and make art and celebrate. The evidence for the existence of actual happiness is overwhelming, and the fact that you still think it's bullshit is undeniable proof that you're ill.

This is a very good thing, because it means it can be fixed. Forget SSRIs, they obviously won't help you. Try antipsychotics, try ketamine, try ECT, try fucking tricyclics or MAOIs or a heroic dose of magic mushrooms if you have to. Worst case scenario, it doesn't work and you stop taking them again. But nothing ventured, nothing gained. If you refuse to try getting better because you believe there's no such thing, that's a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you're going to feel like shit forever anyway, why not feel like shit while trying not to instead of just rolling over and taking it like something that already died but forgot to stop moving?

[–] Peruvian_Skies 1 points 1 day ago (2 children)

I AM a disabled person, sweetie. I have only partial vision in one eye. When my mother left and Dad killed himself as a result, I spent years as a depressed NEET with so little energy to spare that every day I would weigh the pros and cons of shitting the bed so I didn't have to go to the effort to get up and drag my sorry ass to the toilet. I attempted suicide twice, and obviously failed both times, which just made me feel worse - on top of all the shit that made me want to kill myself in the first place, add "too incompetent to even die right" to the list. Great, huh? Then I got proper treatment and slowly shifted my perspective. I'm not "coping", I'm sharing my experience.

One of the main symptoms of depression is being absolutely certain that things will either never change or will only get worse. 10,000 years of human history show this to be a categorically false belief. I'm telling you that it can and does get better, if you do right by yourself.

Like I said, do you really think that out of eight billion humans, everyone thinks and feels exactly like you? That's just absurd. I can't fathom the level of arrogance and narcissism it would take for a healthy person to seriously believe that.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 1 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (4 children)

Life can be wonderful and precious. If your life in particular happens to be "shit, crap and nothing", are you really so self-centered that you think everyone's life is just like yours and we're all only pretending it isn't?

Life is what you make of it. There are happy people in slums living under awful conditions, and then there are people like Elon Musk, the richest man in the world and obviously miserable. Anybody can be happy and enjoy life with a simple shift of perspective, and work to improve whatever bothers them.

If your life sucks so much that you'd rather all life become extinct, have you considered the possibility that you might have unipolar or bipolar depression? This is not at all a normal way of seeing things, and medication might help you immensely. And if that is the case, then I take back what I said about you being a bad person. Mental illness takes a large toll on our worldview and often renders us incapable of expending the energy to care about anyone other than ourselves. We behave and think just like a bad persom, but it's not actually our fault. We just aren't capable of being any different. I've been there. Thankfully I'm not there anymore.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 2 points 2 days ago (6 children)

You have a very limited view of what life is. I pity you deeply.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 11 points 2 days ago (8 children)

Then you're a bad person. It's quite simple.

Whatever quality of life you have enjoyed beyond living naked in a cave eating bugs and berries you owe to the people who came before you. Not just your ancestors, but the people who invented tools and discovered natural laws and organized societies and legal systems, the people who built the cities with their sewage systems and hospitals and electricity, the people who developed fertilizers and antibiotics and undergarnments that don't itch like a thousand angry fleas are having a rave in your crotch. And now, after enjoying the fruits of 10,000 years of civilization, you decide that you're the be-all and end-all of people and everybody who comes after you can go fuck themselves? Bad person. Plain and simple.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 4 points 5 days ago* (last edited 5 days ago) (1 children)

Tesla has a higher market share still. This is changing but it's not that quick.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 18 points 1 week ago (5 children)

A man is also gay (and has a small penis) if he rejects the advances of a femcel. At least according to femcels.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 5 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Europeans can get better quality whiskey from Scotland and Ireland. Where are Americans going to get decent wine?

[–] Peruvian_Skies 4 points 2 weeks ago

None of the choices here are good, but clearly bending over and letting Trump fuck everyone is worse than the alternatives. China is also not going to take this lying down and they have a lot of potential for damaging Trump because so much of the USA's manufacturing is outsourced there and they can more easily compensate with other partners than Canada can. If Canada, China and Mexico stick to their guns, together, long enough for the American people to do something about this idiot, then things can still work out.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 17 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

If a threat from an unelected foreign Nazi is all it takes to keep you from doing your job, you're not fit to hold public office.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 5 points 2 weeks ago

They can't unless the parties agree that they can. The sneaky part is the "by continuing to use our services, you agree to the new terms" part, which is standard practice. You'd have to terminate your account before the new terms come into effect, then take them to court to make sure they didn't keep your data around and use it to train their AI anyway because they "didn't notice" that that particular content belonged to someone who didn't accept the new terms.

[–] Peruvian_Skies 5 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Are you denying that it's getting exponentially worse by the day?

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Shaman take my hand (sh.itjust.works)
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Flux-dev GGUF with LoRAs

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Decreasing (sh.itjust.works)
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Another generation using the text from the I Ching as a prompt. This time it was hexagram 41 - Decreasing, with old lines in the second and sixth positions.

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Form and Emptiness (sh.itjust.works)
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Not Yet Fullfilled (sh.itjust.works)
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I made this image by prompting Flux-dev with the Image, Decision and Fifth Yao texts from the 64th hexagram (Wei Ji) in Alfred Huang's translation of the I Ching.

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