this is such a stupid post but I'm not sure if I'm right anymore.
my(16F) mom always had a habit of intruding on my privacy. i know a lot of people don't support children having privacy, but i really have issues with boundaries, so this was big to me. she'd read my diaries, mock them, nitpick my feelings, hobbies, and anything I'm close to, which caused me to have severe issues with trusting others.
i don't like sharing my phone password (even though it is not my phone, technically), because i have a habit of writing in my notes app. if my mom needs my phone, i unlock it and give it to her at any time, but she says she doesn't need it anymore the moment I hand it to her. today, she was complaining about it again, so I handed my phone to her but she just snapped and screamed at me saying that I'm so obsessed with my privacy that I'm suffocating her, and I'm too sensitive about the smallest things.
I know I'm wrong here but I just want a way to convey to her that I'm sorry for being a failure and I didn't want to hurt her. I just can't trust her and I don't know why I am like this. ik I'm the AH but idk anywhere else to ask for opinions on this.
ik the title is silly because she just said it once, but I can't stop thinking about it. maybe I'm hurting everyone this way. I really didnt mean to hurt her but even if I try to talk to her she'll just say something hurtful.