About ten years ago my brother and I had a massive falling. I ended up hooking up with his girlfriend at the time, behind his back. (His gf was 18 at the time)
I know I shouldn't have done it, but looking back it my self-esteem was in the gutter, and I used this as a poor attempt at a pick me up. Still, when it became known I was hooking up with her it cost me everything. My brother was no contact with me for the longest, he became low contact with me a few years ago with the pushing of our parents. Essentially, because they were tired of only having to invite one of us somewhere. Still throughout that time, I've grown and deeply regret what happened.
Recently, though I found out he's getting married. He hasn't told me about the wedding but I did know he had a gf, I suppose fiancee now. I am hurt because I thought he were getting along more. Last time he was home I joked about how the airforce is the chairforce (he's in the airforce reserve) and we had a good laugh. He showed me pictures of his vacation to Monaco and everything.
I just want to be able to show my love for my brother and put everything behind us. It also raises more questions from people who don't know about what happened between us if I'm not there