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Today I feel like a 5 star man. Last night I lost my kiss virginity and also my sleep-and-cuddle-with-a-beautiful-girl virginity.

For context I'm 28 and have Aspergers. I honestly thought as recently as a couple of months ago that these things were never going to happen for me.

4 stars. Paperwork from my new employer just came through. I got everything I asked for. I'm now just waiting for my old employer to pay out this years bonus, and I'll be resigning for a 30% pay increase.

One star deducted because I'm getting old and crusty, and being expected to figure how to use emoticons/emojies annoys me more than it should.

⭐ Third time an the toilet this morning, bad ass day

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overthinking, but still remembering not to let my day get ruined over it.

🌕🌗 (there's no half star emoji)

I have chronic depression, it's just a normal day.

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I've been feeling off for the past couple months. Two nights ago I decided to do shrooms, I had been putting it off for over two years because I knew deep down I would have a difficult experience and I was right. I took 2 grams as tea with lemon juice, plus 1g eaten. I spent 3 hours which felt like days just screaming and crying. I felt emotional pain like I've never felt in my life before, it was absolute never ending insanity. I cried so much my eyes were almost swollen shut.

My mother has been sick for a long time now and it has been very difficult to deal with and I'd mostly been avoiding it. The mushrooms reaaaally shoved it in my face, they were absolutely brutal about it and made me feel the pain of the loss of my mother for the first 30 minutes. Then they decided to show me that people have lived through the pain of loss since the beginning of time by making me feel that pain through the eyes of thousands of people through thousands of generations lol. It was like I was going through a fractal of the lives of people down generations and generations but only the painful parts of their lives and I felt their emotions so vividly. That lasted for like two and a half hours, with small 5 minute breaks here and there where the trip would go down a bit and I could breathe until it would just pull me back in to this infinite spiral of emotional torture.

During the entire trip, every time I would get a small break I would just be crying, wishing for it to be over. I wanted to get off. 30 minutes after it ended and I went to bed I was already asking myself when the next time was gonna be hahah.

Yesterday I was just in shock all day, eyes still swollen as hell and with the worst headache of my life.

Today I am much better physically but mentally I am still in shock.

Sorry for the wall of insanity.

Is this a scale where five stars is optimal, or where you're being chased by police helicopters?

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Coffee was good but damn my kids are loud.

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One of those “What am I doing with my life” mornings

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I woke up, some people didn't.

I decided it would be a great day before it got started.

In ~5 weeks I'm going to be a grandpa!

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Just fuck my shit up.

Sitting at ⭐⭐🌟 right now. A little more than 3.

Life is pretty good. Comfy job, good pay. But stressful kids and family sitch, with daycare and kind of slow progress at work, and I'm tired all the time because I don't have time for everything I want to do, like play music and play games and exercise and hang with the family and such. Home is a mess all the time due to the kids as well. And ngl, fiancee is pretty messy too, and I want a clean and tidy home in order to feel comfortable and at peace. But she's stressed too so I can't blame her either.

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Life's pretty good. Deducted one star for being tired today and some added stress at work. Those are pretty temporary things though.

⭐⭐⭐ have a cold, feeling hot and cold simultaneously, the decongestant aren't working and coughing doesn't provide relief 😩

⭐️⭐️⭐️ Cold moved to my tonsils and I still feel sore but I still feel mentally better knowing both my parents are over their sicknesses

Today has been a good day, I have accepted a new job after being laid off back in January with a nice pay bump, my car is also back from the workshop and the electrical issue should be solved after the firmware of the electrical system was updated.

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I got up. Took my adderall. Before it kicked in I locked my house door and stepped outside.

Without my house or car keys. I had my wallet and my phone.

I was able to get a friend to pick me up to take me to the landlord's office to get a key, and when we got there, realized I'd left my wallet on the ground where I was sitting outside my home.

We go back, get the wallet, get the key. I had to reschedule an appointment I missed for the afternoon, and then after getting my car keys I got a call that I was late for the reschedule. Hell.

I got inside and my period started at some point during all of this (a week early, and ruining my undies!) I'm not leaving again until I have to help a friend get home from work later. I might not go out tomorrow or the next day either...

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Stressful day at work, once again I am wondering why I do this useless thankless job anyway. If I didn't need the money I'd do something I actually like.

Every day is pretty good on bipolar meds

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I was feeling very emotional for most of the day, like I could cry for the smallest reasons.
Though it cleared up a bit just now when I read a bedtime story for my daughter and let it derail into an exaggerated performance with all the silly voices and jokes I could think of. Just letting go and losing myself in the absurdity really helped. Also my daughter went to bed with a really big smile, which is always nice :)

3/5. Work is a bit of a drag these last couple weeks, and I messed up a bit in my hobbies and made myself a bunch more work to correct that.

Two stars. Stuck at work with a bunch of really great people that just so happen to suck at the same time. At least when we’re famous singers we’ll look back at this and laugh

4 star day

Feeling good about where I'm headed, not enjoying the growing pains

⭐⭐⭐ Pretty good. Bit tired from work but playfully ambivalent about the general state of everything.

mentally a ⭐⭐, but i barely have any work to do, so probably a ⭐⭐⭐⭐ in the grand scale of things

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I haven't slept in 26 hours as of writing this, and my brain feels like a smoothie.

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Update: 33 hours

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I don't know what a 4 star day looks like.

1 star so tired and depressed with life. But it will get better I am alive. Have a job and roof over my head and food in my stomach. So can't complain forever.

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Two stars.

Start of semester at university where I'm a sysadmin. Students are already stealing and vandalizing the equipment. Teachers are complaining about not having software that they didn't request to be installed. Upgrading my PC will be a lot more expensive than I expected. Lunch was good.

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Good with opportunity to get better.

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