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The original was posted on /r/relationships by /u/Important-Bag-6722 on 2024-01-23 16:00:55+00:00.
In senior year, we planned to go on a trip to a amusement park. I asked how we were going to travel. My BFF said that she "had it handled". I thought she was going to have her mom take us. She didn't because she got in a argument with her mom. So she called uber.
After she left for college, she asked me to pay $100 for the trip. I didn't feel comfortable b/c the lack of coherency when planning.
I was frustrated with being pressured to pay for the uber. I texted "already paid. I sent it to your mailbox before you left. Here is the text message proving it:" I then sent a screenshot of fake messages between me and Gina. It ends with Gina saying, "Thanks for putting it in my mailbox!"
The moment I sent it, I felt horrible. Honestly, this was one of the most shameful things I have ever done, to a friend that always treated me well.
For a week or two, I would text "Hey" to no avail.
I told myself I should apologize. But I didn't feel comfortable apologizing when I wasn't a changed person. I decided I would reconnect when I matured.
3 years later, she still hasn't texted me. With my current friends, I have never allowed them to cover or gift me. When I walk home during winter time from work(30 min), I decline them driving me b/c I don't want the feeling of owing someone.
I want to reach out to my long lost BFF of 10 years, but I am no longer interested in rekindling our relationship. I broke a breach of trust by lying, and she would never trust me again. Our friendship will never be the same. So, I just want to give her her 2x her money back and leave. I reached out to her and a few of her friends recently to no avail. I don't know if she changed her number.
I think I'm just going to leave her be. Any thoughts on this?
Tl;dr. I did something horrible to my friend. Is the right thing to do is ignore this instance?