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The original was posted on /r/relationships by /u/heartistorntopieces on 2024-01-19 07:54:31+00:00.
Already posted this in another sub but I so badly need help, I’m so torn.
This all started with a dream. I (19NB), have a best friend (22M) and we’ve been best friends for 3 years now (yes I know the age gap is a little concerning looking back on it but we met through work and we stayed in contact after both moving on)
I adore him and I always have, he’s the only male friend I’ve had that hasn’t made me uncomfortable. We meet at least twice a week to spend time together and it’s always fun and easy. The issue with this post is, I have a boyfriend. We’ve been together for 4 years and while I adore him, this dream changed something within me.
On to the dream. (This was a lucid dream for more info) It happened 2 weeks ago, and it was one of the most peaceful dreams I’ve had in years. It started with my best friend and I going on a walk in our local city, then we entered this one store with a cafe that happens to sell lego. For some reason we decided to have a drink at the cafe so we sat next to each other and I remember that I was just sitting staring into space before I noticed my best friend playing with my hair and staring at me with this… look on his face. I tried to say “what are you looking at?” But all that came out was “what” before he kissed me. I woke up immediately after feeling so weird and I haven’t stopped thinking about it since. I think he knows something is up because I was oddly quiet and didn’t hug him when I saw him on Tuesday. Because I wanted to kiss him.
I feel awful, like I’ve betrayed him and my boyfriend. This sucks
Tl;dr: Had a dream that I kissed my best friend and now it’s all I think about and I feel like the worst person in the world because I already have a boyfriend