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The original was posted on /r/relationships by /u/ThrowRAescape1 on 2024-01-19 07:30:44+00:00.
It’s is really hard to admit, but I don’t think I love my girlfriend anymore. She’s the only girlfriend I’ve ever had, the only person I’ve ever slept with and we’ve been dating for about one and a half years. Despite not technically living together she’s stayed the night every night for the past year, she wants to move in together and asks me questions like if I’d want to get married one day. When we first started dating I thought it was love at first sight. We’d get drunk and I’d tell her how much I loved her and that I wanted to marry her and I believed it, but around September of last year things started declining almost as if I was coming out of a fog.
I think a part of it is that I miss my friends and family. I spend 24/7 of my time with her, we even work together. Although it’s my fault I don’t spend much time with other people, because I’m to scared to bring her around my family, which is a whole mess that makes her feel worse, I know is my fault and I feel like crap because of it. But I still wish I could spend time with other people that aren’t her.
That aside, I can’t imagine myself marrying her anymore, but I don’t know if I can bring myself to break up with her. we are both very fragile depressed people and I don’t know how either of us would cope with it.
Maybe I never really loved her, or maybe I’m just a piece of s*** that doesn’t want to put the effort into loving someone. I don’t know I just feel trapped and I don’t want to hurt her anymore than I already have.
I don’t believe in god, but lately I’ve been praying that he would just put me down.
TLDR: I’m stupid and bad at relationships, should I break up with my gf if I’m depressed and no longer feel love for her?