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The original was posted on /r/relationships by /u/Objective-Cat-6142 on 2024-01-18 16:44:11+00:00.
My girlfriend drunkenly admitted that she wanted to open our relationship last night (4am) & I have not slept since then.
She's knocked out & It's 8am now and I'm feeling idek... I cried a lot lol. I asked her multiple times if she was serious and she told me she felt like she was missing out. She said she didn't get to "get it all out of her system"
I should've known this was coming when she said she wanted to download apps to make new friends. She's been feeling lonely and I can't be her anchor bc I've been in a depressive state for the last 3months.
I asked her if it had something to do w our sex life be I haven't been that great lately in bed bc my depression but I still try my best. She told me that it hasn't been the most fulfilling tho but in a nice way lol
Only when I started crying she says she was only joking and she only wants me but I know she was being honest when she said that. I had thoughts like that as well in my first relationship, but I know with her I'm in it for the long run.
She swears up and down that she wants to be with me and I believe her but I know she can't shake those other feelings. It makes me feel like a fucking loser. I told her I was okay with openina up the relationship though because I don't wi her to lose her.
Background: We started dating when I was 22 and she was 18 so I had a few relationships befor and she said she felt like she never got to full, experience things like I did. I'm her second relationship. We've been together for 3 years now.
TL;DR - My (24F) girlfriend (21F) wants to open our relationship and I’m scared and sad af what do y’all think?