I feel you.
To date, I've lost five people within two days of Christmas. Another two within a week.
You get enough shit built up around any holiday and it starts to grind away at any joy of it. But Christmas? It's so much worse because there's the holiday.
So, losing someone on Christmas eve? That is fucking horrible. It just fucks the entire idea of Christmas right out.
And people always seem so surprised about it. Like, how the fuck are you supposed to just forget and enjoy it?
Absolutely understandable!
Dude over there sucking corporate dick
That is pretty much the most chill chicken ever.
My hen? You put her on your shoulder and walk fast, she's squawking in your ear to slow down, you maniac.
Mine behalf generally need it. Happens as you get older
C'mon, it's obvious there's a bg difference between the two
Well, urine isn't going to be much of a problem at least. The kind of things you can catch from urine tend to not survive very long once the urine isn't being kept nicely in the body. Urine is not sterile, but it also isn't good at transmitting pathogens either.
The feces though, that can be problem. There are a shit ton of pathogens you can catch from feces. However, it's also relatively easy to protect yourself since the most common ones aren't going to bother you just by being on your skin. They can be a problem in cuts, but on healthy skin, nothing.
The key is to not let it sit there, and never, ever touch your face, or genitals, with whatever the feces is on.
Good hand washing solves the problem for that kind of contact. And it's easy to wash the rest of your arms if that's where the poop is.
You don't really need any kind of antimicrobial at all, if you have access to clean water and soap. That really does take care of the issue.
For your feet, the main worry is that it not get on your feet and stay there. You can run into parasites that way. But shoes will handle small puddles or just smears on a sidewalk. Just don't wear them into your home. Either take them off and carry them in for cleaning, or leave them outside of your living space.
Ideally, if you're going to be walking through spilled sewage often, get overshoes that are able to completely prevent contact with your actual shoes shoes, and treat them like that.
Wash any clothing that gets contaminated as soon as possible. Again, if it's going to be frequent, consider some kind of over pants, and/or switch to synthetic fabrics that are easier to clean.
Seriously, as nasty as poop is, and as much of a health risk as it can be, it isn't anything you have to go crazy about. It washes off easily, and protective gear to keep your clothing clean is typically inexpensive.
If your bike needs cleaning, just pay attention so that you don't splash much. It would be better to get in there and scrub with your hands than have splashes get in your eye or mouth.
I spent twenty years wiping people's asses for them, giving them baths. Never once got sick because of poop. You just pay attention to what you're doing, and don't let dirty areas on you come in contact with places that any pathogens can get inside your body.
Sanitizing gels and such do work, though not as well as a good scrubbing. Reserve that for when there will be a delay between your contact with any feces, and being able to properly wash.
But keeping sane? That's a harder subject. Best I can tell you is that if you stay focused on doing what it takes to be able to get away from an area like that, it's enough to maybe hold onto and get through.
See, now I have to believe you're exaggerating how much you don't want to see it because you really want to see it
Alas, that isn't flying, and my punk ass would have explained exactly that to my dad.
However, my punk ass would also refuse to agree with my kid if they did, because you gotta stick with the bit, or it was a waste of time.
Dad joking is serious business
I'm a right to death advocate, even for this kind of situation. We should all have the right to decide the time and means of our death.
That being said, you're still early in the HRT process. You're essentially maybe a third of the way through puberty, depending on exactly what you call the end of puberty. And, of equal relevance, you may be experiencing a need for your treatment to be adjusted. Dosing needs can change through the process, leading to increased dysphoria and dysmorphia.
So, check with your providers to see if that's at play here, assuming that you want to continue on but don't see the eventual benefits coming soon enough. This could be a side effect, the self perception and ideation. Seems like it would be worth at least talking to whoever is monitoring the medical side of your transition.
Also, while I sure as fuck won't give any guidance on what to do or how to do it, your plan isn't a good one. Way too likely to end up making things worse for you. You have no familiarity with firearms, or you wouldn't be considering the method you present here.
Ahhh, pagans, hippies with cooler toys.
No hate, I genuinely enjoy hanging with wiccans and pagans.
I got close to a perfect pacman clear twice. Can't remember the exact number of either run, but one was a little over the 3mil mark. I got excited and fucked it up.
The other was maybe 100k below that.
Both were high enough that nobody even got close.
I was absurdly good at pacman. Pretty damn good at centipede, though I wasn't obsessed with it the same way, so I don't remember any scores at all.