Hey, thank you so much for your answer and insights!
See, that's my point, I'm trying to walk that fine line between being realistically pessimistic and genuine, and pure unsolved trauma. Thing is, I tried to go for positive, for optimistic, but the times being as they are, most optimists are, honestly... a bit deluded and in denial, from what I've seen... And don't get me wrong, I can still enjoy myself, I can still have a nice time, crack jokes, goof around (i.e. I still have that zest for life), but right here and now, with the entire context around us, I'm angry and focused on most days, which seems to clash a lot with the intention of trying to look away from reality.
Heck, I even hoped I'd have the home team advantage with this one, as one of our national pastimes is making fun of the horrible, so I thought more people around here would be inclined toward seeing and calling things as they are. But nope...
And I do have many, many other things with which I try to relate in a potential partner, but this particular aspect has demonstrated itself to be necessary for smooth interactions with a potential partner. This is just who I've become, I am constantly paying attention to everything around me, so it inadvertently reflects off of me in one way or another. If the times are shit, I won't pretend they aren't.
Guess I'll just die, then!