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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/vivid_gryff2040 on 2024-01-11 21:16:26+00:00.
I (37f) have been in a horrible depression for the last few months. I am on medication and in therapy but I cannot seem to make myself do any of the things I know would make me feel better. I don’t exercise, I have to force myself to drink water, I don’t get great sleep, I go days without showering or following any kind of routine other than rolling out of bed five minutes before work to log on. I work in my pajamas all day and I have given up on trying to even make myself presentable. I am about to be evicted from my apartment, which is a first for me. I’ve tried all local resources for assistance with no avail. My credit score is below 500 and I am terrified I’m going to end up homeless. I just started a good job and I’m paid decent money, but I am completely financially illiterate. I have two kids depending on me and it’s all I can do to take care of them and put on a brave face. I have no family locally, or support system whatsoever. My family doesn’t believe in “helping” each other (financially, or being emotionally supportive). I’m not a bad person and I know I’m in this situation because of poor decisions I’ve made (two failed marriages, moving to a town I know no one), but can I even dig myself out of this at this point? Where do I even start? I spend most of my free time mindlessly scrolling to escape my reality. Is this really all life has to offer?