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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/popcorniorn on 2023-12-29 01:48:07+00:00.
I was reading my journal that I've had for the last 7 or so years tonight, finally motivated to start writing again. While I was reading the things that I wrote when I was in my early to mid 20s, I realized how many years I've spent desperate for something to change.
I've been overweight and unhappy for 7 years. I've felt out of control and not myself for all these years, and reading my pain from the past and STILL experiencing the same feeling was a wakeup call. I have been stuck in this cycle of "feel horrible and sluggish and depressed" for weeks, and then finally having that one burst of energy, feeling like my head is clear again. I've been diagnosed with depression and have been in therapy for 2 years. I'm on Lexapro and work through depressed feelings every day. But is this my life? Will the cycle end? Have any of you actually been able to stick with it?
I feel so SO good when I'm sticking to a routine. When I'm eating at home, taking care of my body and my mind. But then one day I'll wake up and feel "off", and that off day will turn into weeks of feeling off. I'm so lost on how to do this on my own.