I think you're an alright person fwiw and being a mod is a very ungrateful job.
It's easy to see the stuff you wanna see and tell yourself you can just ignore the more extreme stuff.
But that's dangerously insidious.
I'm somewhat of a leftist myself, at least in today's Overton window, but I like my socialism to be bound by democracy rather than wielded as a weapon by authoritarians. I think what they're doing, especially here, is not really in good faith.

They honestly give off a lot of the same vibes as the alt-right, and it kinda reminds me of the_donald, except they're authoritarian leftists. I will always distrust authoritarians, even those I could otherwise agree with.
There's a lot of othering, a lot of brigading, a lot of populism and nationalism and very cultist vibe.

When I came here, I enjoyed the smaller communities (than reddit) and people more talking with each other and less at each other. A more human interaction, so to speak, certainly more nuanced.
Some of that is bound to degrade as the feddiverse grows in numbers, but hexbears have definitely not been a positive in that regard these last few days, certainly not the loud ones who come here.