aww

Man I really feel this

I like this quote from Ira Glass, which sometimes helps:

Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer

There's more, but this is the core bit. It helps me because when I'm spiraling I can at least remember, yeah, my tastes are killer. My tastes kick ass

I'm in this comment and I don't like it.

I was experiencing moderate executive dysfunction from extreme anxiety last year. I started drawing but maybe did a small doodle at a time(<15min). I just kept the sketchbook and supplies in the one special place i kept clear of my chaotic clutter(even if that just meant pushing stuff around the desk). I think i picked it up once a week on average. A year on and I've done about a hundred sketches. I guess i decided that out of everything in life, that's what i valued putting miserable little bits of energy into.

Don't know if that's possible for you but every time you pick up that hobby you get a little better at it and that skill is never lost. So you know... Progress is progress ig.