I've seen you here and seen your pictures before. This is an unflattering pic of you but no, you don't look like you think you do either.
So much of your problem isn't going to change with just hrt. The problem is you hate yourself. You're probably also conflating beauty with gender. I'll be direct: in a lot of your pics I've seen, you look like a woman. You just also look... terrible. Your hair is a disaster (as an extremely curly haired woman myself, I know it can be difficult to learn how to manage it but managing it once you know how to isn't. Nor is it difficult to get there, it just takes trial and error. I'm not gonna tell you you should lose weight but it seems like you have a lot of negative feelings about it too. That's within your control and if you think you've tried and failed, you either tried something that wouldn't work or didn't try hard enough.
For all of the different ways you hate yourself, I can recommend one of two things: therapy or change it. Or both is better tbh. Change your hair, your clothes, your demeanor. Those will make huge differences. You aren't the way you think you are but you're not a model either and you don't have to be to be a woman
Genuinely the best greentext I've seen in a long time