TheChemist

Because well, I am Asexual, and well.... it is incredibly rare to find another Asexual person anywhere. Not to shame people for their interests, but I am not comfortable with a lot of posts, even if they are meant to be for a joke, implying that everyone gets horny, and/or that apparent "Peak Hedonism" or whatever it's called, is about having lots of sex. Again, something I am not interested in.

I have seen no signs of any Asexual friendly spaces on this site, not even in the LGBTQIA+ Subcommunity for this site. Although I have been socially isolated by otherwise queer friendly spaces before, for "only" being Asexual.

Because currently, I am forced to learn the subject Business Finance 381... from a Professor that seems to be an absolute idiot. For one thing, he demonstrated the flaws of democracy... by listening to the majority of his students, who said they aren't helped by a textbook, and not having a textbook assigned to his class, nor even having a designated textbook for his class, or having such a textbook available for helping to help people learn. So thus, as you can imagine, I am in the minority of students that is hurt by him listening to the majority, and I am without a viable textbook to find even at the college bookstore.

Are there communities on this site for finding appropriate books/textbooks to use?

To start, I am not suicidal or having thoughts of suicide, more having constant thoughts of "I hate it here! What is there to be happy about?".

I noticed, ever since I was around 8, I always had this sense of.. sadness within me. Despite what my parents thought, I always felt sad on the inside, and I can never remember a single time when I felt legitimately happy, rather than being forced by my parents and two brothers to act happy just to fit in with social cues.

Again, ever since I was 8, up to today, at 24, I still don't know what it feels like to be happy. And any of the supposed positives in life are completely invisible to me, and any of the negatives are as visible as a bright light at night. I also often felt more "numb" on the inside than sad, although the former isn't a huge improvement.

Most days, I struggle to get out of bed and wake up on time, and fall asleep on time.

I could never relate to any of my peers, who seemed to be able to express happiness that I always felt incapable of feeling. I also always had a sense of "Why are they happy?". Thus, I grew up with no friends, and never had friends until last year. Even then, they are online friends, and are often too busy to talk.

As a final clue, I have always had seasonal depression.... On all 4 seasons of the year. I told my mom about this last year, over the phone.... And she laughed in my face over the phone, saying that "It was funny I claimed something so ridiculous". Ever since, the main reason I take care of myself at all is out of spite for my mom always doubting the existence of depression.

I am in a situation where, all my friends are often too busy, so I often spend weeks, here in college, without talking to another soul. To make things worse, I am very shy, and I can stutter a lot in voice calls. And thus, I am often too scared to try and message my online friends (I have only about 5, and they are the first friends I ever made in life, and I only befriended them last year), to ask them if they can hang out. I did once, but I need time to work up the courage again to ask for a hang out.

So anyways, what is it that you do, to occupy your time, when you spend most of your days with nobody to talk to? And you yourself are often busy with things in life?

As some of you might know, I had asked about this anime previously. However, the place where I had been able to watch it, Aniwave, was recently shut down, so thus I was left without a place to find this cult classic of an anime. This one is very obscure, and was released in 2005, without ever being officially released outside of Japan.

The site is ww4. 9animes.org. (No space in between) I have had no problem watching Animes for free on Firefox and having UBlock Origin (Which Google recently discontinued for Chrome) prevents any ads.

That being said, that was when I was using my home internet. I had no notifications of accessing copyrighted material or the like. I had no problems. What is the likelihood that say, the school would get red flags from me using that site? Could it still work while I am here living on Campus? Should I try to find a VPN? (I am a bit of a rookie with this kind of thing).

If so, what trigger warnings should one warn against?

Alternatively, I also saw on another post that said that, the trigger warning wasn't actually serious, but a satire

Either way, should I place a trigger warning if making a post discussing Disney, or do I not actually have to?