SquishedFly

....I'm so glad I'm not the only one with this fucking goblin up there telling me lies ;w;

Plus I'd panic a little if someone used it in public because I was afraid of negative attention.

God I feel that sooo much. I know that none cares but I still can't shake feelings like that.

Interestingly enough, same here. I guess tho that a differentiating factor with me is that I quite like my dead name (even if I can't pronounce it)

100% fully ~~plutonic~~ platonic ofc

Edit: ah shit, I suck a vocab

I'm luckily able to start estro next week so I just gotta worry about my name change...

Thinking that transitioning can be worse in our neighboring countries is wild, considering how much stupid paperwork and waiting for appointments I had to do. I can do this.

...sorry for the slight terminology mishap, I admittedly am not very well educated on politics and especially not it's terminology. But thank you for the explanation

I genuinely feel sorry for you, you don't even have the privilege of gender neutral pronouns in German ;-; (except for "es")...

Let's just hope that what you said will actually be true... I'd rather have that conservative party that can't seem to not be in some controversy in our Parliament than those far right fuckers

Probably the most affirming expriance I've had was when a new neighbor moved into our small apartment building and we got into a little bit of a chat. Some when in she asked me "oh, you're -neighbor with female name-, right?" I was, in fact, not that neighbor. What makes it specifically special was that I haven't done much as in voice training and my voice usually gives away that I'm born male. I still try to sound as androgynous as I can but it's reeaallyy hard.

Since that story is quite boring, here are 3 other affirming stories:

At an anime convention, I went into the men's bathroom to wash my hands and apply more black lipstick. Back then (and even now), the ladies bathroom almost sounds like sin to go into for me (thank you dad). To appear more fem, I wearing a very short skirt and a crop-top. It worked so well actually that some guy opened the bathroom door, saw me, IMMEDIATELY apologized and walked back out. He did come in again after looking at the bathroom sign and asked but ya. It felt so good finally not fitting in a space I was forced into for my entire life so far.

A second public bathroom story ٩(•ᴗ•)۶. I was in Cologne (Germany) for a day because of a small event in the Bootshaus. On our way there, me and a friend of mine had to go to the bathroom, so we decided to go at the bathroom of the train station Köln messe/deutz (we went separately and guarded our baggage and stuff). In any case, I walked in and someone instantly saw me and told me to get the fuck over to the ladies bathroom. The scared little bitch that I am, I just put on my male voice and said that I sadly had to go here... He left me alone after that but still very funny and affirming.

And finally, a non-bathroom related story. Literally 3 days ago, coming home from a Pride parade, a train ticked guy asked me for my ticket. Since I've just been on a pride parade, I was dressed quite fem and slutty. Anyways, I gave him my ticket and ID. THE FACE OF THAT POOR GUY AS HE GOT VISABLY CONFUSED WHEN SEEIBG MY NAME AND OLD PIC. It was amazing. Nothing really happened and h didn't question it and just left me to my ways.

What makes all of this even more euphoric of me tho is the fact that I'm not on HRT yet. I do have strangely high natural estro level which might have made me grow up quite a bit fem too. I guess I'm kinda blessed with the f1nnster gen, where I can look both quite masc and quite fem c:

Where did you get it from, puppy? I totally don't want one myself because my current chocker that you theoretically could attach a leash or chain to breaks when you put pressure on it... Or so I'm told...

Also I'm far too awkward to go to my local pet store and try on a dog collar to see if it fits.

And of course I'm gonna call a cutie cute, you cutie >w<

.>w<

So much attention just for me ;w;

Oh my hod, so cute and so much envy...

Btw is that a dog collar I see around your neck?

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Thenk u so much, I'm so attention deprived TwT

Thengg u c: