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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/catboy519 on 2023-11-22 15:36:32+00:00.
I really, really, really want to get my shit done.
But I also really really don't wanna do it. I rather play games, ride my bike, exercise, or anything that is fun or relaxing, but not mentally difficult.
I'm diagnosed with depression and autism, I have a burnout, but does any of that matter? I just need to get things done again but since 2 years ago I can't find the motivation anymore.
I know that short term motivation works for me. Long term motivation doesn't. If I know I can achieve my goal in a few days, I'm very motivated. If I can only achieve my goal with months or years of effort, im completely unmotivated to even start.
One of my long term goal is to get most things off my todo list. It has gotten so big because I have been procrastinating all of it for years and now its gotten problematic.
Every day I try to get some things done from the list but im just so unmotivated, if I dont get more motivated then I won't make it.
I need to boost my motivation but the goal (empty todo list) is months/years away from now, and that makes me unmotivated. Rewarding myself wouldn't work since I would just cheat on that. I mean I already eat whatever I want and game whenever I want. There is no reward I can add to that, right? I guess someone else rewarding me would work better than myself doing it since I could easily cheat.
In the first year of college I was super motivated because many people told me I can't do it, so I had the urge to prove them wrong, once every few weeks there was a test which I could score a grade on and then brag about my 10/10, this kept me motivated but as soon as I realized there is no need to impress others just for the sake of bragging, I lost that motivation and my studying went alot worse from that point on. So I was kind of motivated for the wrong reason, but it worked very well.
Now, there is nothing motivating me in the short term. So idk what to do anymore.