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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/Choice-Gate-4764 on 2023-11-21 14:42:23+00:00.
Life has become a puzzle in a box I don't know if out this box will be any better so
I'm deciding on leaving my studies for a this semester and return after a break . I have to decide on a lot about myself. I'm in final semester for my current institution.
But as I was away for quite a while on my own I had days of complete neglect towards myself. There was weeks when I didn't take trash out and there were bags of it . Didn't dusted or mopped the floors . Everything was scattered all over the place. My devices were shut for weeks . And my mind was shut too . Some nights I cried cried myself to sleep . Somedays I cried for more than a day and still couldn't understand why I was like this . I am in a better condition than many why I am not being thankful to it . Visited my parents recently and gathered courage for first time to tell them and talk to them about a lot.
And my eyes would always get teary In between talks . I would look around or go to bathroom to not let them know I'm teary .
Met my friend . Gathered courage to talk to her about some questions I wanted to ask to her .
Looked at my finances till now , thought about my life to do things in the next two months .
And my exams come next month and next too. I haven't studied a bit . I was always good but i can't seem to understand why I am unable to do well in studies this year . To tell you being alone maybe gave me a lot time alone to think of my choices that I made till now . A lot good more bad ones . My health too .
I Don't want passing grades in it and I have option to take a year off and come back to study . I have taken 2 months off at the beginning of the year . So I'm thinking of taking a semester off this time .
I don't plan on traveling or spending my or my parents money . I wish to do many part time job for two months earn a bit enough and save that money and go back home then maybe loose weight alongside. And I'll think of others things after it .
Financial security other than my parents or living alone without someone elder than me around. At this age still trying to find out if I can take a step away from my stable career setted up .
I want to ask is it right of me to do so . Or am I wrong somewhere.