There's a lot so I'll try to just condense this down to my most immediate woes. Just before Christmas my transmission went out in my car and then a few days later I was laid off from work and the employer didn't even give me a reason. Promptly found a new job, but at a $4 an hour pay cut.
Cut to last week, my girlfriend (whom I've been together with for 5 years and lived with for 4 years) gave me a hug and kiss and told me she loved me when leaving our apartment to go hang out with her friend, which was 100% normal. A couple hours later I received an email from her and after reading it turns out she's breaking up with me and has already gotten a new apartment lined up for the end of the month (Feb). She disappeared and didn't come back to our apartment or contact me for 3 days after that.
After she finally returned and I had the chance to speak with her about everything, turns out she's been planning this for months and just acting like nothing was wrong to my face. No amount of talking or apologizing or pleading would change her mind, she decided she no longer loves me and is dead set on leaving me no matter what. She will, however, apparently be continuing to live in our apartment for the rest of the month and even sleep in my bed next to me.
Our lease is also up at the end of this month, so I either have to find a new, cheaper apartment and somehow move all my belongings by myself or renew my lease in my name only and then also have to figure out how to pay the full amount for rent instead of the usual half. Plus the rent is almost certain to go up since it will be a new lease.
If it wasn't apparent, I'm not a wealthy person and ever since my recent pay cut I'm only making $10 an hour for my full time job. My inspection sticker on my broken down car goes out at the end of this month also and my apartment complex will waste no time at all to have it promptly towed and impounded on March 1st. Can't pass inspection with a bad transmission. Can't afford to repair or replace the transmission. I also have a 15 year old cat that has diabetes and requires insulin shots and prescription cat food, both of which are quite expensive.
I don't really have any friends to lean on or talk to. Limited family members that aren't nearby and can't really help anyway. Without warning it feels like my life is suddenly crumbling to the ground around me and I have absolutely no control over anything. I haven't slept more than an hour or two in roughly a week or more and my appetite is non-existent so I've had difficulty eating properly. I spent the night in the emergency room several days ago after I had a huge panic attack, blacked out, and stopped breathing in the middle of my apartment. My now ex-girlfriend happened to be there and apparently had to perform CPR on me until the paramedics arrived.
She had been giving me rides to and from work and to buy groceries and such. Now I'm forced to spend way too much money on a bunch of Uber rides everywhere.
Feels like I've suddenly got too many obstacles to cross and my income is far too low to pull myself out of this hole I'm in right now. I'm not having suicidal thoughts or anything thankfully, but I'm obviously in a pretty heavy state of depression after all this. Any encouraging words, real effective advice, or assistance of any kind that could likely help me out in any way would be greatly appreciated.
If you made it this far, thanks for reading my entire sob story.