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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/modvenger on 2023-12-14 22:59:55+00:00.
Usually when people say “i’m broke”, you get the gist. But, it’s been a long uphill battle fighting to win custody as a dad for my son. Then, losing my job, toss in huge amount of debt, and sprinkle in almost losing my apartment from lack of money. I noticed myself recently looking to pick up things off the ground. I’ve ate half eaten food people left at a bench. When no one was looking today, i ate food people threw out. I had to tell my son I can’t afford candy he wanted at the grocery.
After a month or so from my job, looks like i’m coming up for air, as I finally got help from government. I even teared up when i got my first “free” groceries. I know there’s light at the end of the tunnel. I know I just have to wait the long game until the courts can overturn my ex’s fake allegations. I know it gets better but i keep reaching these spurts of feeling so hopeless. Like an endless video game to grind without a level up.
I know I’m doing everything i can and I am proud of myself, but how do you combat this endless feeling of pain. I meditate at times but even that feels losing it’s effects.