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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/Kozchey on 2023-12-02 11:10:41+00:00.
I know, I know, I am aware it is silly, older folks would find it funny in a friendly way. That's just how I feel. Most people my age have two kids (I am a guy), get divorced, have lost a parent, and here I am procrastinating at work, trying to become slim again as I was before Covid, fighting with the temptation to drink beer (was in a dark place last winter, drank quite a lot which made things worse, if not - was the root cause of my depression) as the last month I really broke my zero alcohol period that I maintained for a few months....
So a lot of petty Peter Pan-ish things I have to deal with, which makes me sad and angry at myself for being so weak and not worthwhile. I low key wanna escape and ditch it all, cause it is hard to try something for the hundreth time, and, well it sucks to do hard things...
But I know one thing. If I quit on myself now and stop fighting and make things worse, I will hate myself MORE an year from now. We only lose when we quit. It sucks, I hardly believe in myself anymore and lost a lot of sense of self-respect, BUT I WILL NOT QUIT, I WILL WIN AND OVERCOME MYSELF. The hard men and women that once lived, my ancestors, so I can breathe at this moment have not lived pointlessly. I will not let them down, I will not let myself down.