I just wanted to relax. But instead, I begin to experience extremely unpleasant sensations. First is the pins and needles sensation, it's everywhere, starts in the back of my throat and then travels all over my body. It sucks! Then I expect that the next part is from being far too high, despite only a few drags or the recommended dose of the edible. I think it's paranoia but I start to believe that I lived someone else's life (whomever is in the room talking to me) before this one and I know what they're about to say because I have said it. Or that I'm the center of the universe and so on. As if that's not bad enough, it becomes impossible for me to understand time, 5 minutes feels like an hour or more, and then it's just me reassuring myself or getting someone to talk me down until I can function. It's stressful as fuck and very disorienting. I don't know if I want to risk that again but I was really hoping for a fun little escape from reality and chronic pain and depression. Maybe even a few giggles as I watch cartoons or whatever, something more fun than this! I am at a point where I think that this just isn't for me.
Honestly, sometimes it just isn't for you.
Here in Europe, we tend to smoke weed mixed with tobacco. The main reason is cost, but it significantly reduces the amount you're smoking and gives you a light buzz similar to a glass or two of alcohol. I'd recommend you try that if you're looking for pain relief, and if it still is too much then I don't think it makes sense to continue.
also common in europe is that smoking weed is a social thing, a thing you do with friends. the critical part is that you're not smoking the entire joint by yourself, and you pass it around, wich means you can give yourself some time between puffs. in general, we also smoke joints pretty slowly while having conversations, like you would sip a beer.