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Fuck. Was I always supposed to be able to get to sleep inside of ten minutes? What do you mean my attention is supposed to be like a searchlight that follows my eyes, and I'm not supposed to look through things? Why are all these objects in a pile distinct entities? I thought I had to use the 'search' function to return random loot from the pile? Why aren't these random background noises filling me with a steady, seething rage?

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[–] [email protected] 35 points 1 week ago (3 children)

Yeah, I get it. The first few days of medication were incredibly eye-opening, and I had taken a shitload of stimulants before, mind you.

It felt like somebody had flipped the switch for the 5 billion whispers that were constantly talking in the background. It was honestly shocking. That was how neurotypical people experience life?

Now, the downside: I actually started to miss those whispers. They were my voice, after all, and they were not only distractions, but also my emotions, my creativity, my wit, my charm. It's not that those things are all gone, but they are certainly subdued, muted.

So, whenever circumstances allow me to, I like to go back to my old, unmedicated self.

[–] [email protected] 13 points 6 days ago

So far, my imagination is unaffected. If anything, I feel slightly improved - I no longer involuntarily flit mid-thought to another line of thinking entirely, and struggle to find my way back. I guess somewhat ironically for a stimulant, the big change feels like simply that everything has slowed down, so I can actually make decisions and distinctions.

[–] [email protected] 7 points 6 days ago

I actually started to miss [...] my emotions, my creativity, my wit, my charm

It's known as "flattening".

[–] [email protected] 8 points 6 days ago

Now, the downside: I actually started to miss those whispers. They were my voice, after all, and they were not only distractions, but also my emotions, my creativity, my wit, my charm. It's not that those things are all gone, but they are certainly subdued, muted.

YMMV on this. I absolutely do not miss the brain chatter whenever it starts again. I do not consider it to be "my voice", but the thing that's making it quieter than I'd like.