ADHD

Over 6 weeks on Elvanse now, and it's great. It helps with one single symptom only, though: I can just get on a task and see it through, no procrastination, far less pain.

But that's all. I'm just as senile, forgetful, fuzzy; the quality of my work did not improve. I go to a place on a 1 hour trip and forget to pick up the main thing I was there for. I ask everybody what they want to eat, open my laptop to order it, and forget all about it, until the hunger kicks in and I wonder why it's so late and nobody got food.

I appear in meetings on time and well prepared now, but when I open my mouth, it's still letter salad.

Basically I'm this Joe Biden who rushes to the task like the Flash, and then goes full Biden once he gets there, just looking around disoriented.

It FEELS even worse than before, but I think that is because doing more means more error, more senile.

Still, even if it would stay like this, my life would have changed for the better.

But I wonder: This one symptom could be fixed from the short-term "high" which is certain to decrease over time, not from the intended effect on the prefrontal cortex. Just like opioid painkillers helped me with exactly this as a side effect, but only for 3 months.

So we'll see whether stims are right for me in the long run.