I was mostly joking with my title. I don't know if I'm an asshole. I do possess asshole like traits. I'm deeply against any type of conservatism. Interacting with people drains my energy so I can be glib after a while of hanging out. I'm probably just as sensitive as I am insensitive at times too so I spend a lot of time ruminating things that shouldn't be taken as an offense.

I think in the long run it's just difficult for me to establish a friend because I'm not sure what I want out of the relationship other than just having someone around to shoot the shit with. That means I need to have an interesting take on things but I'm not that interesting.

I think friendships are a give and take and I over give when it's not necessary while also being absent when it's most important. I also dont take ever. Thinking I must be self sufficient in all things.

I don't know. I should probably do better.