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WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING LIVE AS MYSELF AS A FUCKING HUMAN BEING INSTEAD OF A FUCKING PUPPET CONTROLLED BY A FUCKING DISORDER I LITERALLY DO NOT FUCKING TEST POSITIVE FOR

THERE IS NO REASON FOR EVERYONE ELSE TO BE TREATED NORMALLY BUT ONE STUDENT TO BE BABY TALKED TO THERE IS NO FUCKING REASON FOR THAT AT ALL. WHY IS IT SUCH A SCARY THING FOR ONE STUDENT TO ENJOY HOT NEW SHOOTING GAME THAT EVERYONE ELSE ENJOYS? WHY IS IT SCARY FOR ONE STUDENTS TO ENJOY A FAMILY FRIENDLY GAME THAT EVERYONE ENJOYS BITCH FUCK YOU I HOPE YOU FUCKING DIE THANKS TO YOU I HAVE NOTHING TO FUCKING LOSE

FUCK MOTHERS THEY'RE ALL THE FUCKING SAME THEY'LL RAISE CHILDREN NORMALLY UNTIL THERE'S A CHANCE THEY'LL GET EXTRA MONEY IF THEY NEGLECT THEIR CHILD ENOUGH

Security guards never screamed in its face accusing it of bringing in weapons when it only had a phone and portable game console alongside standard school supplies. Nothing ever happened. It just doesn't like school because of its disorder that made it not like school.

The same bitch who bullied me the most, wiping spit and toilet water on my face, putting dog shit and spitty sunflower seed shells in my toy box, that same fucking bitch really told me she's proud of me really now really?

Then told me to stop acting like I'm more than when I refused to act like a clown in the welfare office for an amount of money so small it would be illegal to pay an employed teenager.

If you didn't want it, and you allow your actually wanted kids to bully it into almost killing itself

I'm too young to work, shower, use skincare, cook, manage finances, etc but I'm too old for everything childish. And of course doing nothing at all makes me a burden.

Doing anything childish is funny, it's proof I'm a little kid who can't grow up and it's so funny.

Doing anything mature is funny because a little kid is trying to be grown at 27, so funny that it thinks it's an adult now. Funny!

if the same reason I couldn't shower, go outside, wash my face, cook, or eat without assistance from family that hated me is the reason that made me So SmArT that I could make games, get a job, and go to college? Everyone else can accomplish things, but some stupid santa claus shit made me do it. That shit gets credited for my hard work. Just fucking make it end. The same reason I was treated like a baby in high school and college is what made me so strong. Right.

I've been ready to go my whole life. I really should have been euthanized.

Fuck this life, this world, and everything. All love is fake. All friendship is fake. Everything positive is fake. Everyone wanted me to kill myself this whole time. Why didn't you just tell me? I would have died a long time ago if you weren't faking that you cared. Even the dog wanted me gone.