Melbourne

I love my cat so much. I wish he could understand me just enough to hear me say it.

What's for dinner, mum?

Poor man's ceviche

Just back from dinner with the guy who organises the local Meetup dining group.
I'd dropped into the conversation when he invited me to a cafe that I wasn't looking for a relationship right now, just to lay it on the table, then after some messaging that was pushing the boundaries and some blatantly flirtatious behaviour in front of others I had to have a stern talk of the You're Making Me Uncomfortable Back Off variety.
So he walked me home, came in briefly to meet the cats and then I drove him home making it plain that I was just going to drop him home and run.
So what does he do? Ask me to stay the night!
Firstly NO, secondly I've never left the cats alone overnight and I'm not going to start now, thirdly I Told You I'm Not Interested Several Times Jesus Christ. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I think he's more of a clueless scungie type - I know the breed from Uni God knows - but seriously, which part of I Am Not Interested does this guy not understand?

Long day... cranky... not a drop of moisture all day, but I just managed to miss the rain and got to come home to silky kitty and a bit of silliness (=much-needed energy expenditure) with the feather toy. Thank god I have food in the fridge... rest my tired soul with the sound of rain and a nourishing meal. I'm spent.

Tonight it's singing practice. I cancelled my plans so I could have the evening to myself to get my voice back to a usable state.

I miss performing so much. I just love the vulnerability that you feel when you're giving a part of yourself to strangers for a short while. Putting yourself out there.

Music had been such an important part of my life. Every step of the way music has kept me going when I felt I didn't want to. I could always rely on making music for catharsis.

And I think that's what makes it such an important part of my life. I feel like everything is bottled up unless I'm playing regularly.

/end over sharing rant

winds howling

Fed the kitty this morning and we went back to bed, cuddling sweetly… she stretched her arm, dropped it and punctured a single secretly sharp claw into my eyelid like a fishhook.

After a delay of refusing to get up it was washed with antibacterial hand soap and dabbed with Betadine so fingers crossed. I have a spare box of antibiotics ready to go.

But yeah, that was literally half a centimetre from my actual eye.

It’s ~mandatory~ Fun 👏🏻 Family 💕Friday 🎊!!! Team Group Hug!

Congratulations Mumma and Pappa Peregrine Falcon on the safe arrival of chicky no.3 only minutes ago. Cheers 🍺

However some of youse here have disappointed me greatly today. Lucky I don't hold a grudge. Cheers 🍺

Just had a company meeting about raises. I don't quality because I just started, but they gave everyone:

2%

You should have seen everyone's face. The mood in the meeting plummeted instantly.

I'm expecting some resignations in the next few weeks.

Well that's a first. Found a stick insect on my subwoofer. I don't think I've actually seen one before in the wild:

It has been put back outside on a tree. But glad to see there's another real junglist saying wicked.

This most definitely calls for a rave choon:

Considering it was on the subby... Suicide bassline!

Speaking to my therapist last night. We were talking about my anxious mind craving distractions and the amount of screen time I'm racking up on my phone. He was talking about just sitting, no noise or anything and just taking in whats going on around us. I've never been so proud of myself cause I stopped short of shouting "RAWDOGING! Gen Z call it rawdogging when you just sit on a flight and do nothing!"

Fuck i'm weird ey.

Clothes are drying in record time!!!!

I was flash flooded down here on the bellarine. Holy fuck I've never seen rain like that. Every gutter was overflowing. Here was the start:

Been spending the last 2 hrs having an intimate conversation with a bucket. I have not seen this level of water down here before.

Today is reports day. Excel and PowerBI can fuck right off lol

1 down, 4 to go!

One good thing about being flooded is a double rainbow:

My feet are fucked and i am mad about it

Whoop de doo... I knew I had it going well for a while, but just as I'm looking at having to drop my overall hours because I am simply not coping with doing it all and trying to finish degree, I get an email from the landlord about upping the rent to 550/week (15% increase).

Pour one out for me, this has just ruined my weekend. Landlords do be collecting more and more for adding zero value...

She's said she's open to negotiation but I really suck at working out a middle ground. Too many emotions. I'll have to sleep on it. Why did she have to send this on a Friday night.

Was running a bit late this morning. Missed the train by 45 seconds. And had to wait 25 min for the next one. wtf. It’s not the weekend

I'm not impressed with your heavy breathing, mother nature.

G’day

Sometimes when I hoover a pill down my throat I wonder if I accidentally swallowed a bit of foil with it.

suns out quick do the stuff that requires power!

Yeah I’ll order the motion activated light and see what I can do. Then if that doesn’t work out things are about to get stinky. I also have some creative plans for bike locks.

Ultimately though I’d love to just move somewhere less eventful and have a proper little garden, catio, maybe a shed to tinker. Maybe a fire pit. In my dreams. Maybe if I win the lottery