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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/geniusstardust on 2024-01-19 12:58:47+00:00.
Does anyone here suffering from pmdd, maladaptive daydreaming and have no mental clarity at certain phase of cycle?
I posted my pmdd related issues in pmdd sub, not allowed to share link under this subreddit. So I am copying that post here :
My cycles are of 28 days (+/- 1 or 2 days sometimes). I divide my cycle into 4 weeks, period week, follicular week, ovulation week and luteal week.
I only get to live my follicular week sanely, with mental clearity and focus I want and need to go ahead in my life.
Ovulation week is hell. I feel super horney, I dissociate and do lot of maladaptive daydreaming, Preoccupied with thoughts of my crush, imagine wild and spicy scenarios with him, watch porn and masturbate, not able to focus on studies, not able to sleep on time, up for late nights and doing nothing productive. My mind is a mess and have bad brain fog.
Luteal week is almost similar to ovulation week but less intense than ovulation week + constipation, bloating and difficulties in falling asleep.
In menstrual week, I bleed for 5 days and first 3 days are good, doing good. But from 4th day of bleeding to last day of menstrual week I experience wilderness again. I become horney, contaied with thoughts of my crush, dissociate, watch porn and masturbate, do not able to study.
I consulted a psychiatrist and he put me on fluox but god I became overweight and emotionally numb. So I withdraw it. I can't take contraceptive/ external hormones because my body doesn't react favorably to them. I am scared of medicines because of their side effects. I am literally trying to loose my weight since 2019 and I only lost 5 kgs. Medications did fucked up with my metabolism. I am not discouraging anyone here, if Medications suiting your body, take them ☺️. It's just not for my body.
I found out I have estrogen dominated cycle and it becomes more dominant because I am overweight ( more fatty tissues increase your estrogen levels).
I am consulting a therapist but we are going at slow pace because I am taking my time to open up to them about my life.
Does Anyone relate with this of had in similar situation? Please guide me what can I do ? I want to find things which can be done regularly and can be incorporated in daily life.
P.s. I am still a student and near broke. I am preparing for my exams and I don't want to get fucked up this time.
Thank you :)
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I am able to reduce my maladaptive daydreaming into some extent but still not able to stop it. I am trying to unlearn this coping. I don't want to think about my crush 24*7 and making scenarios in my head when I can study or spend time on my hobbies.
My brain is a mess. I am trying to figure things out during my sane weeks and I am crying. I feel like I am lost and won't have a good life.
I am not able to study consistently because of these issues and it is affecting my grades.
Please anyone have suggestions enlighten me. I am trying to find ways to be my previous self again who was living life instead of just existing.
Thank you :)