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The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/TrifleHistorical8286 on 2024-01-05 19:32:47+00:00.
I'm really struggling this week. I have been ok with myself I know I have fifty million problems right now but I'm not going to be able to to handle all at one time.
What's bothering the most is I don't have a safe space. I don't wish that on anyway this is a dark place to be in. Not to have anywhere to go to when you need it most is important. Being autistic, paranoid, and anxious not a good combination when it is on super high. Life is super hard right now and the only place that I can think to go to for help is jail and prison. That's sad when the only place for peace is 21hr lock down. I'd rather be there than to be around family and don't have friends. My own family just talks about me to one another about me and I don't even ask for help no more. Asking for help is just an invitation for them to tell me how I'm just a grown kids that dont want to work etc. I've been taking care of everyone but myself since I was a kid no wonder life is unstable. Im not blaming anyone though now that I vented I feel better though. Jail/prison is sounding more and more like a vacation!
I never want life to stop but having a people support system is important. What do you do when you don't have one? it's hard. I don't even want support for money but to get a hug, to talk, to vent without being judged or talked about when you are vulnerable would be nice.
Having a bad day give me some motivation and thanks for reading!