This is an automated archive.
The original was posted on /r/getmotivated by /u/gibblywibblywoo on 2023-12-29 13:29:01+00:00.
I was almost choking with anxiety that day when I saw her, I felt sick. I fell hard and the feelings were becoming way too much. I got rejected, her reasoning made sense and was fair. Obviously I'm a bit sad. But its alright. I'm still alive and the world didn't end.
We talked a bit after and I awkwardly explained myself and apologised for any weirdness, joked around after and enjoyed drinks with friends and had a fun night out. We chatted a bit throughout the night and it feels like I'm fifty times lighter, like a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Obivously its only been a day and I'll probably still harbor feelings for a while but (hopefully) they'll fade with time and we can continue as friends. She really is a fantastic person, willing to give me career and motivational advice. I've been feeling lost the last few years and ever since meeting her I'd become more motivated than ever. She's made me want to improve myself, now I just need to grab ahold of that motivatation and not let it go. With this experience and a lot of the advice I got here a few days ago I'm feeling hopeful about my future for the first time in as long as I can remember.
Theres a part of me thats sad but also a part thats happy because even though I was awkward and fumbled words I managed to at least get it out there. It feels like a big step. I don't know if this experience will lead any where in regards to make me more confident in asking people out of dates as I'm still bad at talknig to strangers and making small talk. But baby steps.