I am a few hours away from ending my life, wanted to tell all who subscribed and thought my little art project was neat a big thank you. You all brought me joy in a fun project I had. I was recovering from my 4th concussion when I was most active here, these images I created were helping me heal and express myself when I couldn't work.
I felt I could contribute something to a budding community on the fediverse. It helped tremendously in my recovery having some direction and goals.
Today my story comes to a close, I'm drinking myself to death along with a couple sleeping meds and ibuprofen bc it's what I have handy. I was going to turn my life around working as a life insurance salesman. However it required so much upfront cost to get started than I had available. I had put all my eggs in one basket. I cannot afford rent today. I've let down my two roommates, my wonderful girlfriend who believed in a shared future together, and my daughter who has 11 more years to work out with her mother.
Fuck capitalism, fuck Trump and his entire cabinet along with the GOP, fuck the United States of America.
Listen to some Rush (hemispheres specifically) for me and punch some Nazis.
Long love the fediverse, long live you all here.
Love, Rebels_Droppin (Logan)
Hey dude. I don't know you at all but I can promise you it gets better. Not right away. And not without effort on your behalf but it can get better.
Your little girl won't understand. She's going to have questions for the rest of her life that she can't ask because you won't be around to answer them.
I was right where you are right now a couple years ago. I'm talking blitzed out of my mind sitting on the edge of a bridge ready to jump.
I completely understand wanting to check out. I've been there. But the ones who love you will never recover.
I've seen too many peoples lives permanently change forever because someone close to them killed themselves.
Please don't do it. Go hug your daughter and make sure she grows up feeling safe and loves.